life is deadly

{February 16, 2006}   A Poisonous Obsession called Love

I often wondered how love should feel. Being a teenager will do that to you, no matter how immume you are. You see i’ve always felt as if I’d be immume to love. Quite the opposite is true, I seem to be affected greatly by love. This is itself is a terrible conclusion. I never detested love but i never liked it either. To quote a song from the movie called Moulin Rouge: “love makes us act like we are fools”, which to true to ignore. Love especially in the early stages, which is often referred to as crush or youngh love, will do that to you (the acting like a fool part). Now this leads me to my main point, how does love feel?.

To understand how love feels you must understand how it works. I shall simply describe the stages one will go through if he/she finds himsilf/herself in love. It all starts out with finding some someone you fancy and then chaos ensues. You’re swept up into a whirlwind of emotions and as whirlwinds are quite powerfull, you can’t really get out. The normal steps to take after that is to fall into love with him/her and tell him/her that and when said love is returned, start dating or going steady with him/her. And then providing you don’t get dumped or something of the like you’ll proceed to live happily ever after, probally married as well. Things get more complicated when other things happen.You can be rejected when you confess your love, which is why many people wait before they do so, or why people never do it at all. Rejection is after all an unpleasant emotion feared by us all. Thing get even more complicated when you fall in love with somebody else. Which is ofcourse a very nasty situation if you are in a relationship. Now that we have put the way love works on paper along with some “minor”complications we come back to our question. In the earlier stages you fancy someone or have a crush on that person, but how do you know that it’s not an obsession? I certainly feel that love in it’s earlier stages can be similiar to the way a serial killer obsesses about it’s victims only then with more positives feelings. You all, or at least i hope all of you do, recognise what i mean.  In the earlier stages all you can think about is him/her, you can’t eat, can’t sleep and simply can’t function normally because he/she is always on your mind. I do not know if the same goes for the later stages of love, but i’m guessing you can control it better ( the acting like a lost puppy thing) although it never stops. Now ofcourse I don’t know for sure because I never experienced the later stages, mainly because i’m to young for that. Now back to the subject, Obsession. Now all that i have described about how i’ve interpretered love can be defined as some sort of obsession ofcourse the serial killer comment was a bit ot of place, but hopefully it got the message across.
Now I’ve always interpreterred  me being in love as an obsession with somebody I like. I cannot give reasons as to why I do, all I know is that I do. I shall not bother you with my problems because i know you’re not interested. ( if you are…you’re outnumbered). I’m just wondering however, if all teenagers feel that way. If you do please comment or if you don’t also comment:).
Now before i sign off there’s something you must understand and to once again quote Moulin Rouge “love is a many splendid thing”. Never forget that love is what drives us, what makes us and somethimes breaks us.Signing off,Gabrielle                        


greenlightsabers says:

Man, I have to agree with you there. I really liked this girl. And I was really scared to tell her (I think I’m bi-sexual) because I thought she would reject me. It was also really difficult, as this other guy liked her too. Now I’m not the kinda person to compete, but he was always winning, and I felt really lost, know what I’m saying?

I always thought of her during class, and would always get told off by the teacher. 😛 But yeah, everytime I saw her, I just stood there and stared at her, because I couldn’t take me eyes off her. She was also a really nice person with a different energy when compared to everyone else. I can’t really explain it, except that it was a “nice” energy.

But yeah, I finally had the guts to tell her, and she took it great. She actually took it as a compliment. So yeah, our friendship is even stronger, and I actually kinda care for her more than my friends. Though my crush on her has died down greatly, I still think she’s a beautiful creature.

gabrielle says:

good for you and i’m gald it worked out for ya..:D

greenlightsabers says:

Hehe thanks. 🙂

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